Episode #169: Tarot: The Major Arcana Cards 16-21 + Life Path Numbers + Card Numerology

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Today we continue our Tarot lessons and we will be covering cards 16-21 of the Major Arcana.
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·      Don’t Make God Make You Do The Things You Know You Need To Do.

·      I Hope You Get Truly Happy.

·      Weight Lose Connected To Letting People Go.

·      Chakras Affected By Sex.

·      Associations Absolutely Represent Who YOU Are.

·      The Definition Of True LIGHT.

·      Become Like A Child.

·      Is Your “TRUTH” A Current Or Past Event?

·      GET GOOD AT GOODBYES..

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https://www.numerology.com/articles/your-numerology-chart/life-path-number-meanings/
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https://www.numerology.com/articles/about-numerology/single-digit-number-3-meaning/
http://numerology-thenumbersandtheirmeanings.blogspot.com/2011/05/number-10.html
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Transcript

Episode #169: Tarot: The Major Arcana Cards 16-21 + Life Path Numbers + Card 

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Tarot 16-21: Okay. Hello, everyone. Welcome back to the sex, drugs, and Jesus podcast. I'm De'Vannon Seráphino. This is the continuation of the major Arcana. A teachings that I was doing the last one, I don't know, went over an hour and a half along and I just got to the devil card and got really fed up with the devil and just got all heated and everything and flung the card down as I was in anger.

Tarot 16-21: Nothing like that. But, you know, That, that, that, that, that, that devil, it ended on that one. So this, in this episode, we're picking up and we will be covering the tower, the star, the moon,

Tarot 16-21: the sun, we're walking on sunshine, the judgment, glory be to God, the world.[00:01:00]

Tarot 16-21: The way this will work is I'm going to read a snippet from Llewellyn's comprehensive guide on tarot. Just like to have that second. A viewpoint and I'll talk to you about the numerology, the life path numbers, the zodiac sign, the planet, just mentioning the zodiac signs and planets that we already covered that in previous episodes.

Tarot 16-21: So let's start with the tower website, sex, drugs, and Jesus. com, YouTube sex, drugs, and Jesus podcast. Thank you all so much. We're almost at 30, 000 subscribers on YouTube and but interestingly enough so far, I talked to way more people on TikTok and we're somewhere nearing 3, 500 ish, I think followers on TikTok, but the engagement on there is like wild.

Tarot 16-21: And so, it is what it is. [00:02:00] And I'm thankful for it all. So keep coming to the channels and keep sharing it with people because people come to the second chosen Jesus podcast to get fucking help. It's not entertainment podcast I'm trying to help you have a fucking happy ass life and I'll let bullshit go.

Tarot 16-21: That's what I'm here for my calling in this world a large part of it is to challenge you to get to your next evolution. That's what I'm here for. So where are we at with power. Lord have mercy. Let me just read what Llewellyn has to say about the tower. When upright, the tower suggests that you need to critically evaluate the structures that are confining you or limiting your life.

Tarot 16-21: If you don't do so voluntarily, the universe will find a way to force change upon you. Long standing routines that have been hindering your progress need to be abandoned. Unanticipated changes may at first appear traumatic, but in the long run can open the door to renewal. [00:03:00] There's an old adage that says every crisis presents an opportunity.

Tarot 16-21: Unexpected and sometimes drastic alterations in one's life, of course, are often accompanied by sudden and profound insights into the nature of one's reality and belief system. Concretely, such events may include separation, divorce, job loss, school failure, financial setbacks, and upsetting medical diagnosis, and so on.

Tarot 16-21: This, this, this card is so heartbreaking

Tarot 16-21: because it's the result of people being hard headed. Like, it is possible to evolve to a point where, where it's like you seek and look for change so much that you don't need the tower to happen [00:04:00] to you. Because you will always be before the Lord, the divine, whatever you want to call it, being like, God, what needs to change?

Tarot 16-21: Who needs to go? What structure needs to be taken down? I don't need you to send lightning to knock it down because I'm already here, ready to leave. Okay. This is after you master detachment and you get past this idea. That there are certain people in your life that you can't let go of, that you can't see your life without.

Tarot 16-21: Mother, father, lover, wife, husband, don't matter. They start fucking up, they gotta go. That they're no longer fulfilling the purpose and the need, and you can quantify the value they bring, they have to go. You have to renegotiate the time you spend with them severely, the way you approach them, and how you feel about them, and the energy you put into them.

Tarot 16-21: You are here to serve God. You ain't here to serve yourself. More than him. You're not here to serve no fucking people, more than yourself and HIM the order of things is you serve God and you first. The two of you are [00:05:00] supposed to be more like one, and from your primary relationship being the divine, then you come out and are equipped to handle these other relationships you want to have so damn bad.

Tarot 16-21: Okay, the idea of community came from God, but what the devil has done is made it a fucking obsession. Okay. This tower card is something that comes after people have warning, but see what people, what we do is we go and set up these towers and we get comfortable in them, but they're not true. Or maybe they were comfortable and held some element of truth at some point, but we outgrew them, but we didn't fucking want to go.

Tarot 16-21: Like how in the devil card, we were talking about how it's sensual and it feels pleasurable, but it has you chained up and you're in bonds. You know, you're in prison to some shit that's making you feel good. On some level, your soul [00:06:00] knows that shit ain't serving you, but you also ain't trying to leave either.

Tarot 16-21: Okay, we'll see about that.

Tarot 16-21: God, the universe, whatever you want to call it, is only doing this out of love. Because you're not really showing yourself love by saying, staying in situations that are not elevating you. People in this tower ain't growing. They're stuck in a fucking tower. They feel like they're high and elevated and exalted and lifting up and living their best life because they have this lofty ass shit they're living in.

Tarot 16-21: But it's actually quite an isolated fucking cold ass existence. It's very separated. You ever seen somebody or yourself maybe just been in the midst of a whole bunch of people and still feel fucking alone? Been in a supposedly loving relationship with someone and still feel fucking alone? Been in a polycule?

Tarot 16-21: Are like sleeping around and still felt fucking [00:07:00] alone. Why? It's because you weren't living your truth. You, you ain't gonna, you weren't in love with yourself. I need you to fall in love with yourself. Oh my god, like really fall in love with yourself. This, this lightning comes when people won't change.

Tarot 16-21: I've seen this happen to people who call themselves creatures of habit. Who won't go and seek change. They wait for it to force its way down their fucking throat okay.

Tarot 16-21: This is a heartbreaking ass card because these tears that people cry when these tower moments happen could have been avoided. I have given people warnings from the spirit that they didn't listen to in the past and they got their asses towered [00:08:00] and shit. And then they, but you know what? You know, a message to all my fellow clairvoyants out there.

Tarot 16-21: We can't waste energy and emotion over crying for people who would not listen to the things that God told us to tell them. It is only our job to give these warnings and speak it in such a way that people fucking understand it and let people choose to forbear and get their asses destroyed or to listen and avoid disaster.

Tarot 16-21: You know, we can feel the feelings, but we got to move on. We can't be bellyaching over there because we warned them, we told them. So

Tarot 16-21: but take rest, my clairvoyance, there are people actually fucking listen to, they do. There are people actually damn listen. But remember, like with Jesus, what did he heal 10 or nine fucking lepers? I think it was 10 lepers, but only one came back to [00:09:00] say thank you. It is not our business more. So isn't that so much our business for people coming back to tell us?

Tarot 16-21: how our ministry helped them than them getting the fucking help. That's the most important damn thing. So we're not always going to hear about the good that's happening. Okay, fine. And I understand the sort of things I say people be like, It really fucks with people, and it's supposed to, and it throws them off, and the last thing a lot of people are thinking about is leaving a comment, and, and, and some get that, but they do go and listen.

Tarot 16-21: I've had people tell me, they're like, D, I, I, everything you put, say, on TikTok, I'm there, every fucking one, no matter how much I consume, and I'm watching the whole thing, but I am never gonna leave a comment. That's just, I have had people tell me that. They're just like, I ain't a commenter. I'm not commenting on it, but what you talking about has changed my fucking life, but I'm never [00:10:00] going to comment.

Tarot 16-21: You will never even know I'm there. Okay. But that was no small thing. The Lord told me that to encourage me so that I'm not sitting around gauging the success of the podcast or the ministry based on what people say. That ain't the point, because this is deep work. That God is doing in people and how can people articulate if they're actually going through a tower moment or through some, some deep judgment or God is on they ass like that.

Tarot 16-21: Well, how do you put that in comments? That's not important. What's important is that you go get quiet before the Lord and let him work on you.

Tarot 16-21: This is just, this is just something I hate to see. Because God is not really a God of force. He's a gentleman. But things will be as they are, and as the angel Gabriel told Daniel in the book of Daniel, that that is determined shall be, and there is no fucking way around it. It shall [00:11:00] happen, one fucking way or the other.

Tarot 16-21: God is in control of everything. And you might look at the world and be like, how can that be with destruction? Well, his ways are higher than your ways. And this is not about the world being run as you understand it supposed to be. It's about his high level, eternal view and understanding how every little thing impacts the next thing in perpetuity throughout the whole universe and eternity, which yo ass don't see.

Tarot 16-21: And so what you gotta do is be sure in your own world, you have not set up prisons. Jobs that you hate relationships that you're hiding your emotions in, addictions and shit since extra sensual things, you know, all of that is tower esque type things. We set this shit up, and then God has to come knock us out of it so that we can move on and heal and grow and go on to the next thing but if we'd have been left their own vices and devices.

Tarot 16-21: We just sat our [00:12:00] asses in these cushy ass towers, deluding ourselves, laboring under a strong self delusion, man, that we're living our best life, and we're not. Your best life is only defined when God approves it, and God does not give a damn about how much money you make, how big your dick is, or how tight your pussy is, or how cute your selfies look on Grindr, or whatever sex app you're on.

Tarot 16-21: Like, He could give a give a fuck less about those things. Like, Chyle,

Tarot 16-21: what you think is making you happy is not making you happy because you're not really happy if you have this card come up. This card is about the divine God knocking sense into somebody who thought they had sense. This card is an overruling of your superior knowledge that you thought you had, although you may not have called yourself arrogant or conceited and you may not have [00:13:00]been, but you didn't think you needed to actually change anything, or you knew and you weren't actually getting about the business of doing it.

Tarot 16-21: This card to me, so, so God's knowledge prevails over yours and he steps in and flexes on your ass is what happens.

Tarot 16-21: This card has movement to me the way I interpret it. Because you know how some people got that way about them where there's just some shit that is not going to fucking do in no fucking hurry, no matter what are certain things that they're not going to do in a hurry. But the same people who I'll see slow troll spiritual healing and scheduling time for God are like deep things.

Tarot 16-21: I'll be the first ones to go, fuck, I'll go get high. And they get there as in a hurry when it's something they want to do. And I think everybody does, but other than that, they're like, well, you can't rush this and I'll get, you know, just be on my way. And then, oh, everybody moves that ass when they want to tell somebody there's a [00:14:00] million dollars on the corner.

Tarot 16-21: Everybody was fucking getting in a hurry. When this shit here happens. There's no more stagnation like Llewellyn saying, the death, financial setback, things that happen that shock you out of your stagnancy. I pray that each and every last one of you get to a point that you don't need to get, keep getting your ass whipped.

Tarot 16-21: by the divine like this and you mature that you can see, okay, this job changed. I'm leaving it. This person changed. They did this, this terrible thing. I'm leaving them. I don't give a damn what it is. Father, mother, sister, brother, all of that. Everybody's on the chopping block, no matter who they are. If not, then you have a master detachment.

Tarot 16-21: I'm not saying be happy about it, but I'm saying do what needs to be done because you are, you are accountable to the divine, not to your mother. Not to your culture, not to your fucking upbringing, not to your church, not to your religion, not to your [00:15:00] priest, pope, imam, whatever. You're accountable to God and God alone, bitch, and you will account.

Tarot 16-21: And like I said in the previous episode, if you believe in reincarnation, then them people say you have the council of elders that appear before you when you die. There's accountability when we fucking die. That it won't be to no fucking human. So get over fucking humans. I mean, how fucking silly and crazy these people look. I mean, it's a complete fucking wake up call. You don't want this. Get ahead of this. I'd be going before the Lord, like, okay, what can I change today? Every day I'd be like, I dedicate myself to you. I'd invite God into my sex life and in my dating life and to my Artistic things, my magic, every fucking thing.

Tarot 16-21: I don't need God to help me tie my shoes, but [00:16:00] I acknowledge him for giving me the power and the ability to do that. But shit that I know could get me caught up in some type of self delusion meant emotional things, sensual things that might give me a false sense of comfort is what I'm telling you. You better take the time to invite the divine into shit.

Tarot 16-21: And then when the divine shows you shit needs to change, let it go. Okay?

Tarot 16-21: Because the thing is, this tower didn't burn to the ground. There's no returning to it. So you could have left these relationships and these people and these habits and this sensual shit that you like, that you made a god out of. The thing you wanted to do wasn't bad, but you did it too much. You did it excessively, you made a god out of it.

Tarot 16-21: Probably. Like, [00:17:00] sex ain't bad, but if you do it with the wrong people, or without depth and love and soul, then it becomes bad. For instance, eating isn't bad if you eat too much, and it becomes overly sensual. Traveling isn't bad, but if you do it too much, and you're not really soul called to where you're going, maybe, at least if you do it too much, you know, anything can become bad.

Tarot 16-21: Not paying, not being willing to confess. The fact that anything can become bad is a part of this. It's why people get in this situation. I talked about this in the last episode. People fucking around in these low vibrational polycules and they're just dealing with sex in different ways. So immature.

Tarot 16-21: Saying shit like, well, it's not rape and we're all consenting adults so what's the harm, right? Girl, bye. Like, that is a professed and confessed[00:18:00]

Tarot 16-21: Lapse of judgment. It's immature of like it's, it's a person who wants to do things and have the sensual fun but not really evaluate all the possible risks. You stop that just it feels good. So I'll keep doing it. That's not far enough. You got to go with and what are the dangers? What are the other energies?

Tarot 16-21: These people are bringing whatever it is having sex watching television with somebody traveling with people. That is a is an acceptance of energy. If you accept somebody's energy, you accept whatever beings are with them and it changes you.

Tarot 16-21: People set up these poly situations. To only go so far emotionally with people to have sex with, they call it love, they say we're not hurting anybody, you're [00:19:00] hurting yourself, because you're not having a true, vulnerable, deep commitment, which is really what we all want, is to truly be, to truly be seen and loved and heard and understood, you have to be willing to let yourself be seen.

Tarot 16-21: And heard and loved and understood. You can't hold back you and then be pissed because people don't actually see you or you can't hold back you out of fear of being heard and rejected. And then be pissed because you don't have depth in your relationships. I've, I've heard people complain about this. I'm like, then I examine them and I go, but you're, you're not really committing to anyone you're fucking, but you're not actually committing to anybody.

Tarot 16-21: That wears you out over time. I hate to refer to sex as fucking, but it's what people understand. I'm speaking your language. I absolutely despise that because of how special sex is to me, but I will speak the people's language, whatever. Now speak the common tongues. As I just said,[00:20:00]

Tarot 16-21: just be careful.

Tarot 16-21: It's just, I just see this, I just see this. I'm going to put this card down, but

Tarot 16-21: I'm just going to remind you just because you can travel, you have money, you can get laid more or less whenever you want, you might be in decent shape or whatever, you can have all of that and still be living in a whole fucking tower. You can get powerful and pay attention and numerology. This is card number 16, the specific number 16 variant.

Tarot 16-21: The specific number 16 variant of seven is the most transcendent wise and profound aspect of the number seven.

Tarot 16-21: They're saying that because one, 16 reduces to seven, because one in six is seven. It is a variant that easiest can melt into the void and enter deep states of Zen like [00:21:00] meditation. The number 16 is a karmic number. This means that there could potentially be terrifying life lessons following the 16. The most important experience is the lesson of transcendence.

Tarot 16-21: Meaning that you need to learn at a deep level that everything in this life is transient and that everything will die, perish, get consumed by existence and return nothingness. This aspect can lead to extreme inner anxiety. Making the number 16 difficult to master life. Life path number 7 zodiac sign is Aries ruled by the planet Mars.

Tarot 16-21: Aries is the cardinal sign, which begins with spring in the northern hemisphere.

Tarot 16-21: The star.

Tarot 16-21: We meet that after going through the tower. Forward to good ol Lou Ellen here. I love reading [00:22:00] esoteric books. God, do I consume this stuff. When upright, the star card offers hope and support after the disruption of the tower card. You're beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. You have located a trail leading to your destination.

Tarot 16-21: There is a promise of peace and tranquility if you continue on your current path. Help may materialize from unexpected sources. You can proceed with faith that the future holds brighter prospects. As Marcus Tullius Cicero said some 2, 000 years ago, Where there is a life, there is hope.

Tarot 16-21: So in this card, we have this naked lady. Tits out, cunts out, it's I. The day can come for all, females everywhere. I'm here for the free tit movement. Free tit movement. I think y'all are gonna be able to do what the fuck you feel. With your [00:23:00] body and and not be told what to fucking do with your body is just fucking ridiculous Period Like when has ever seeing a nice set of tits walk by on a beach or something like that ever hurt anyone I Mean these things are not dangerous if the society needs to chill out That might sound contradictory considering like how I don't care for porn, but there's a difference in between a woman wanting to feel free, like I can walk around with my chest out or she just might be fucking hot and just want some fucking ventilation.

Tarot 16-21: I can walk out with my chest out, but she can't. That's not watching people have sex. That's completely fucking different. And I talked about the previous episode, the dangers of that, the energies and the spirits and all of that, but. This card[00:24:00]

Tarot 16-21: kind of echoes the temperance with the one foot. Being on the ground, another on the water, and the pouring of the water. Both of them have a lot to do with like, balance though. If you find yourself in a situation where you had to have a tower moment happen to you, one thing that you will have to take time to do is to rock and reel.

Tarot 16-21: Because what you're finding is a new balance. Because what you thought was life and reality before wasn't. This star card is about learning the new you. Okay. Like fuck this devastating thing getting out of a bad relationship, you know, after, after that divorce last year from that narcissist that I was in that four and a half relationship with, I didn't know who the fuck I was anymore, but that was my tower moment because I knew that that relationship wasn't working and I knew that person wasn't right.[00:25:00]

Tarot 16-21: And I was sitting there trying to make some shit work that never was going to work. And then the Lord did knock me out of that. But then through his graciousness, I was restored through the revitalizing, revitalizing waters of this tower. And, I mean, fuck, of the star card, the revitalizing waters of the star card.

Tarot 16-21: And, I love how much bigger this woman is than the mountains in the background. That makes me feel like, you know, the energies here have overcome the problems that used to be. You know, the star.

Tarot 16-21: It has to do with a lot of attention getting put on you. I know some people really call this like a glow up card. And if you can take your tower moment on the chin, accept your punishment, your chastisement, which is an act of love. If you don't love somebody that's when you just let them run around and [00:26:00] do whatever is when you love somebody is when you do what I'm doing is challenge you face to face and be like, bitch, what are you doing?

Tarot 16-21: Like my dude like really, that's not not that's not you're not loving yourself by doing that. And I think you are but you're not in here is why I know it makes you feel good in your body, but you're actually still hurting yourself and killing your soul and here's why

Tarot 16-21: That's true fucking love. Sitting around watching people destroy themselves is something that your enemies will do and laugh at you and call them with other Faking being your friend. You better be careful about that

Tarot 16-21: This card to me is a card of focus Is this this this person is paying the fuck attention to what they're doing? This is completely different because when people were being [00:27:00] that tower energy They kind of taking life for granted and just kind of fucking around with it Even though they don't think they are in this card here.

Tarot 16-21: This person is like They know what the fuck they're doing, they know who the fuck they are, they know why the fuck they've come, they, okay, they can answer the who, what, where, when, and why. They gone get to the sensuality, clearly, or she wouldn't have her titties and her puss hanging out. There ain't nothing wrong with sensuality, but it must be done under the illumination of the divine.

Tarot 16-21: Other than that, you gone get stuck with the devil creeping up into your sensuality, and then you won't be able to tell when the shit got evil.

Tarot 16-21: This person about they business. I love this. Naked and getting your fucking job done. This is embracing your sexual side to me. But not letting it rule you. This is about embracing all of your sensualities. Play video games whatever the fuck that really makes your titties tingle. You know, [00:28:00] sensuality and it is positive sensuality.

Tarot 16-21: This card talks about positive sensuality. After just getting knocked out of a tower where you were catering to negative low vibrational sensuality. Night and day fucking difference. Okay, but difference is what we need and I, and I love this.

Tarot 16-21: We'll talk about this little birdie here in the background, if this card should come up in a reading. But I wanted to point out that that bird there, and I'll be doing global readings whenever I get done teaching you these cards, maybe after I teach the planetary houses and things like that. I don't know, but I will be doing a reading.

Tarot 16-21: So we have much to discuss. And this stuff be on my mind and I got, I got some shit I need to say about the way we live in life and how we need to do better.[00:29:00]

Tarot 16-21: Because what I really want for people is whatever your version of this sort of looks like, like I'm so fucking happy. Like literally as of within the past few months. I thought I was happy, but for when I had high paying jobs, I didn't like it. And when I had relationships with dudes that weren't really for me, when I had friends who I thought were friends and they were really enemies who weren't really for me on some level, I knew this, but I settled for it because I thought it was the best I could get.

Tarot 16-21: I thought it was something I could get. It was a part of that, of what that anxious attachment style that the Lord delivered me from.

Tarot 16-21: After my tower moment last year, when all the evils of that person came out, well, all of, I guess most of it, or enough of it for me to understand what I was dealing with,[00:30:00]

Tarot 16-21: or enough that I could fucking handle all the above really, I changed my last name, started getting tattoos, moved to New York, got rid of my car. In short, there's a lot of other things that happened, started doing psychedelics, all kinds of shit.

Tarot 16-21: Now that I've mastered detachment, and I understand that there's nobody in my life who I am not willing to get rid of. Nobody. And there's no habit I'm not willing to cut off and let go of. Begin the process of these things with the intention of succeeding. What I got in return from letting those attachments go is pure fucking bliss.

Tarot 16-21: I have fallen in love with myself in ways that I used to think that I was because I could travel and spend money here and eat this and assume this and sleep with that and have sex with that. Uh uh. It was a lie. It was a tower I had constructed. I'm not in that tower anymore. My ass knocked [00:31:00] out of it and I am so fucking happy.

Tarot 16-21: I love every fucking thing about me, shadow side included, because I control my shadow. I don't let any fucking thing dominate me. Not anymore. I'm a complete mastery of myself. I gained this in isolation in this, during this year that I haven't been having sex with, year or two or whatever the fuck it is I've been having sex with people.

Tarot 16-21: I haven't been been dating, been praying and fasting and meditating and singing songs of worship in private. God granted me full fucking mastery of myself. And I love myself. And I want you to know what this feels like. To not feel like you need a fucking person. Are you need community quote unquote, you understand that it's necessary, but you don't feel like you have to have it.

Tarot 16-21: I will have sex, but I don't have to have it. I will travel, but I don't have to do it.

Tarot 16-21: I'm looking forward to being in New York all of next year because I'll need to [00:32:00]pop down and check on my cats. Maybe for like every three months for like four or five days, but I. Would like to go and stay for two weeks, but I can't because of this volunteering I'm doing and going to school. I will be here for a, for a year.

Tarot 16-21: I won't be doing any, like, traveling, like, to go party, hang out, or, or whatever the case might be, or to do any kind of spiritual explorations like that.

Tarot 16-21: I travel the party because I party on psychedelics that are very spiritual. So I could feel called somewhere to do that. But it's going to be nice for the first year and a long fucking time that I can remember not having. It's like a trip trip, like a coming up, you know, like, and I don't even consider myself to take vacations anymore with my life is so goddamn good that I don't need a break from it.

Tarot 16-21: I love the city I live in. I'm not itching to get away from here. I don't feel overwhelmed. I don't feel [00:33:00] burdened. Everything I do, all these 1, 000, 000 jobs you see that I have, all these businesses I run are my choosing, and I don't feel burdened by them because they're everything that I'm supposed to be doing.

Tarot 16-21: I am a light to the fucking cloud. Even with all of these things that I'm doing, and I am so fucking happy and I accept things about myself and I don't judge myself anymore. I've lost over 65 pounds and when I take trips the weight comes back up and then I just get it back down. I used to hate that about myself, what I would travel or whenever I lose track of it and gain weight.

Tarot 16-21: It's like I approach shit without the negativity. I'm like, okay you gained it, you have a plan in place, just fucking lose it, no need to trip and stress. I look at shit completely fucking different. This time last year as I did this, this time this year as I did last year, I've completely fucking changed.

Tarot 16-21: I'm totally fucking happy and I'm totally my own best. friend rather than being my own fucking worst enemy. And when I had all of these [00:34:00] material things and all of these low vibrational people in my life, that's the part of me being my own worst enemy, because I actively accepted that. I don't accept it anymore.

Tarot 16-21: Everyone understands that De'Vannon Seráphino will cut you off in a New York city second, because a New York city minute would take too long. And it has changed the sort of energies that Try to come around me. Everyone in the world knows this and devils understand this too. So do you fucking try? I mean, I mean it, and I am intentional about it.

Tarot 16-21: I hope and pray that you all learn in your lifetime what it means to really fucking fall in love with yourself, and I mean down to your most finite level, warts, shadow, and all, being patient with yourself as you change, be it not accepting bullshit from anybody, not giving bullshit to anybody else either.

Tarot 16-21: Seventeen in [00:35:00] numerology gives you an energy of celebrity and stardom. It gives the charisma to be on a stage, shine like a star. Thank you, Jesus. Tap into the deep archetypal, archetypical currents of art and beauty, and communicate these aspects to humanity. The 17 8 variant of the 8, because 17 reduces to 8, is the most beautiful and spiritually minded of the 8s.

Tarot 16-21: It gives an energetic beauty that makes other people turn their heads and notice you, period. And the symbolism of the number 17, eight, the chakras are in perfect balance. This affects the body positively so that you have a good metabolism and a healthy hormonal balance. Many find that weight problems are resolved and find their ideal weight when they get the 17, 18 energy into their name [00:36:00] chart.

Tarot 16-21: Okay. I've wondered about that because I've been struggling to lose so much of this weight and keep it off for years. Now that I have changed Internally, it's so fucking easy to do. There is something to be said of having heavy energies that you let around you. That shit can cause physical problems. This is talking about chakras being in balance.

Tarot 16-21: If you have a low vibrational lover or people who you sleep with, that will throw your chakras out of alignment. Not only will their bad karma attach to you through sex, but it'll fuck up your karma, your fucking chakras too. Once your chakras get fucked up, that can turn into physical disease. That can turn into your money getting fucked up.

Tarot 16-21: That could turn into you not being able to sleep and you won't be able to track that back to the sex that you just had to go and have. Okay. Energies lurk in damn near every fucking coroner 'cause everything has a spirit attached to it. This microphone, the fucking plants [00:37:00] us, our hair and ate shit still can be affected by spirit.

Tarot 16-21: So we can't underestimate Okay. The motherfucking. A power of spirits and energies, if you want to call them that, shit's fucking real, bruh. Shit is fucking real. And the more you awaken and become aware of that, the more that you're gonna ascend and grow and tighten the, like, the sort of people you have around you.

Tarot 16-21: You're not gonna feel like you have to have people around you all the time, or you have to be getting laid all the time, or you have to, It's just, I hope that you just get to a point where you look back and you be like, I don't even fucking recognize the person I used to be. That is victory, that is strength.

Tarot 16-21: As I used to sing in church, I know I've been changed. Okay. The life path number is 8. The zodiac sign associated with the number 17 star card is the [00:38:00] sign of Aquarius. Planet is Uranus. Aquarius is a fixed sign which begins in the middle of the winter. Let's see.

Tarot 16-21: The next I have for you, the moon. Let's see what Goh Llewellyn has to say about the moon. When upright, the moon suggests that circumstances may be elusive, unclear, confusing, fluctuating, or unsteady at this time. The moon has a dark side, always hidden from human view. Individuals under the influence of drugs or alcohol can cause problems.

Tarot 16-21: Important information may have been misunderstood, but may not yet be within your grasp. Unseen influences may be at work, and matters are likely to look different in the light of day. You may be in one place, one phase of a cycle, and only with the passage of time will the next phase reveal itself. [00:39:00] Don't jump to conclusions or act on impulse.

Tarot 16-21: Be sure you have accurate and verifiable information before making a major decision.

Tarot 16-21: This to me,

Tarot 16-21: it speaks like a further continuation of shadow work. There's one thing, no matter how much you ascend, no matter how high you go in God spiritually, you gonna always have a shadow side to you. But this is a part of the thing that keeps you humble. Because if you were that angelic in this life, you would exalt yourself against God.

Tarot 16-21: And it also allows you to relate to the people you're called to help. So, having that weakness is still there. At least still a knowledge of it, or the potential to fall back into shadow, you know, just because I have self [00:40:00] mastery at the level that I do now, which is fucking Hi, does it mean that I can't fuck up how what the devil calls me to fuck up if I ever to let my judgment lapse and let myself get close to somebody who's low vibrational, because then that energy would transfer.

Tarot 16-21: And then once I saw that if I refuse to walk away from that person, because when you're in any type of relationship the energies are going to balance out either your ass. It's going to elevate them or your low vibrational ass. It's going to elevate to their level. Are you going to pull them down? Are they going to pull you down?

Tarot 16-21: Are you going to go your separate ways? But if you stay, the energies are going to equal out. Period. That's just the way it works. Because opposing energies are not going to stay around each other. That is why. You can always tell something about somebody by who they choose to date, be in relationships with, and who their friends are, absolutely.

Tarot 16-21: And I never could understand why people would say, [00:41:00] you can tell a lot about people by their associations until I understood it in a way that works for my mind. I have to understand things on this most finite level, which is spiritual. And once God revealed that to me, that is through the internet. These spiritual things that are accepted and the energies that reflect each other internally is why you can tell things about people by the people they choose to let get close to them.

Tarot 16-21: Then it clicked and made sense. Then I started kicking motherfuckers out of my life. I was like, oh hell no, you're not going to get me hemmed up spiritually because you full of shit. No more trying to be all nice and shit.

Tarot 16-21: But it's quite curious. That you have these little fiery looking things, the same as you do in this tower, as you do here in the moon card, is very fucking interesting. Very interesting.[00:42:00]

Tarot 16-21: Why that is, and you also have these two tower looking structures here in this moon card. Why that is, what the spirit is telling me. Because you want to always be doing evaluation, not just on the people around you, but on yourself. It might seem like it's a lot to be evaluating how you show up to relationships, how your friends, your lovers, your family are, but what it is, is a skill set.

Tarot 16-21: It's a muscle that has to be developed. It's not overwhelming. You will learn it like you did the job you have or the person you have in your life or your child or your pet. You have to have day one of everything. And if you're not used to spiritual work and shadow work. Don't let the devil lie to you and tell you it's going to be overwhelming so much too much and how can I Evaluate people like that.

Tarot 16-21: Gosh, you really look at it that deep. Yeah, we do. Yeah, I do But I had to develop the skill just like you Then your only other choice is to remain shallow and who the fuck wants to do that But there's warning in this car to [00:43:00] not fall back into a situation where you have to get towered again So you came out Got all washed up in your Aquarius energy with a star card, but bitch, don't go back.

Tarot 16-21: You got two fucking towers in this car. So the warning is severe because if you have to go back and repeat some shit that you, your ass already got delivered from and you get recaptured by some shit again, it will be doubly worse because you done insulted the divine who set you free. There was a song, a gospel song that, that always used to say it was by John P.

Tarot 16-21: Key. I can do all, I think it was called Strength. And it has the album Strength, John P. Key and the People's Choir, whatever the fuck it is. And then a little line in that song said, I can keep the victory. It said, I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me. I can keep the victory because the oil of God's on me.

Tarot 16-21: And as a child, I was like, what the fuck does he mean by keep the victory? [00:44:00]What that means is once the satan or devil energy as you would describe it has had your ass bound First of all, when you try to get away from it's not just gonna let you walk away. You don't have a fight on your hands Okay But once you do get untangled because you're not in the fight alone that shit comes back up Thank you.

Tarot 16-21: You will be tested to see if you're going to let low vibrational people back into your life You will be tested to see if you're going to let bad habits back into your life You

Tarot 16-21: Oh, yes, I had narcissistic men trying to talk to me, you know, at different places that I would be. And then I detected that energy in them and I could see it now that I had gotten delivered from it. And I said, Oh, fuck. No, Satan. Oh, no, no, no, no, no. But there is a lot of people, there are a certain amount of people I fucking hope is not a lot.

Tarot 16-21: Oh, God, I just don't let it be a lot [00:45:00] who know narcissism. Just for instance, when they see it and know that they're with that energy again, intentionally And, lord have mercy, when you do that, your deliverance is going to be more difficult. And so a part of this Moonheart, you know, these shady, you got like, what is this, like a wolf, a dog, a fucking crawfish of all things?

Tarot 16-21: Or a lobster? Yeah, that's giving me more crawfish vibes. This is like creepy ass shit that you don't want to let back in. Cause you already went through this before, you know, and you've made it far, but this, the way this, this moon faces thinking is saying, still be thinking, don't get so comfortable to think that the devil won't try to re ensnare you with something that looks different.

Tarot 16-21: But prayerfully, you'll be sensitive enough to the spirits and to the energies that it doesn't matter how [00:46:00] something or someone looks if this shit don't feel right. If you catch a vibe, you can be like, mm mm, he look like this and he talk to me, but mm mm, still girl, no. Mm mm, no, shit don't feel right. I ain't vibin I'm not vibin I'm not vibing.

Tarot 16-21: I know you want me to come visit you in that state. I can't catch a vibe. Mm mm, something don't feel right. It just don't feel right, girl. Let me pray about it some more. I just, mm mm. You don't know what the fuck you might be avoiding. So don't just go run off to do shit because you think it feels good or it's gonna be good.

Tarot 16-21: Pray first. Put God first, child. This moon card just gives me strong, like, warnings to not fucking be reentangled with the shit you just got out of. Continue to understand that no matter how spiritual and holly dolly you are, That I'm the most spiritual holly dolly motherfucker I know. I still have to watch my shadow and pay attention that I don't fall back into things that I come out of.

Tarot 16-21: I don't worry about it because I just be [00:47:00] praying all the fucking time. But it's easier for me to pray and pray much. I pray three times a day. I fast several times a week. I read my Bible when I wake up in the morning, in the morning before I start my day. Okay, then I sing worship songs when I'm not writing them and I really make a point to schedule God in.

Tarot 16-21: It's either I'm going to do that. I'm going to fuck around and get in trouble and still gotta spend just as much time praying to get the fuck out of trouble. So I'm just going to do it balanced and smart this time around. The number 18 in numerology gives a considerable drive and power to accomplish all the actions that it starts.

Tarot 16-21: The number 18 is the most militant and straightforward of all the Mars numbers. Numbers with digits sum 9 are Mars numbers like 18, The number 18 slash nine indicates the determined and hardworking personality with a great vision and a strong [00:48:00] masculine awareness and drive. You can accomplish great things and achieve incredible wealth through mental focus and enterprise.

Tarot 16-21: You are individualistic and you are your own boss

Tarot 16-21: at this point. Yeah, you are your own boss. The point is for you to stay, stay that way. The life path number nine. I know this said, this is a Mars number, but the planet that rules this is Pisces. I mean, the zodiac sign is Pisces, the planet is Neptune, mutable, Pisces is mutable, begins when summer is ending, the element here is water.

Tarot 16-21: Let's talk about the sun. In every possible sense, an imagination of the word. My inner child is literally this naked ass baby riding on this horse with his [00:49:00] dick swinging with this fucking crown of flowers and this fucking red feather, which is the same red feather that the fool has in his head, through this goddamn field and his white horse waving his victory flag with the sun shining down.

Tarot 16-21: This is exactly how my inner child is. Period.

Tarot 16-21: So let's see what Lou Ellen has to say about the sun. Mmm. Because I absolutely love it.

Tarot 16-21: When upright, my children, the sun is a positive card that typically symbolizes a period of success, achievement, recognition, warmth, happiness, popularity, and contentment. Health improves and personal relationships prosper. Work situations and new [00:50:00] ventures go well. Because of the sun's connection with Leo, in the fifth house, Of the natural zodiac modern astrologers believe that this card can also signify romance marriage creative self expression, the birth of children, or older, I'm sorry or other matters related to offspring.

Tarot 16-21: Now is the time of clarity elimination and enlightenment under the words of the bard. How far that little candle throws his beams, so shines a good deed in a weary world. That is from William Shakespeare, the Merchant of Venice, the year 1600. If you please. Let the sun shine, let it shine.

Tarot 16-21: It's so good to have the sun shining after, what did we just go through? Hang man in isolation, then [00:51:00] we would hit death. Then we had to deal, we got some reprieve with temperance and we had to deal with the fucking devil, you know, in a tower. And it just feels kind of like up and down, like, yay, then oh shit, then yay, then oh shit.

Tarot 16-21: But ain't that about how life goes? I want you to pay attention to this brick wall though, in the back of this boy.

Tarot 16-21: It's no small thing to have to say goodbye to people. Inhabits, but say goodbye to them. You must, if you're ever going to make it to this point, this child, first of all, this is a healed as inner child right here. You're not going to get no other fullness of sun card energy unless you do your damn shadow work, which is what you were supposed to do in the moon card.

Tarot 16-21: And other cars and back in the hangman and everything like that. You cannot fake this. [00:52:00] You cannot rich this. You cannot sex this. You cannot sensualize this in any way. This is a light shining from the fucking inside out. It doesn't have a damn thing to do with your outside in. You can't shine like this unless you right in your head and you right in your heart.

Tarot 16-21: Which has nothing to do with sensuality, or the things you can consume in this life. This is stillness. This is, this is a, this is a light that shines from the place of peace. From a place of wholeness, from a place of falling in love with yourself. There ain't no fucking body else in this car, but this child.

Tarot 16-21: This is somebody who is happy with themselves. Every day. That's saying it's perfect, but their perspective, they know how to check it. This is, this is, this is where you want to be. Like, I love me and there's nobody I'd rather be around besides myself. I'll take you. I might take you too, but I don't have to have you.[00:53:00]

Tarot 16-21: Mother, lover, child, whatever. This is how you fucking want to be. Your favorite person is you, bitch. And the divine, of course, but you and the divine are one, as I was explaining to you in a previous card and from your love. Relationship, your primary relationship is the divine and from that you extend into your other relationships.

Tarot 16-21: That way when people come and go and they will, you have the divine to go cry to and you should. And then he will heal you, but you're already in love with yourself and the divine anyway. So you caught them tripping and slipping and you cut them off. Oh well, you'll cry because you're already in love with yourself anyway.

Tarot 16-21: This is not arrogance. This is balance. You better hold people in their right perspective. You cannot get lost in people, family, lovers, whatever. Do not get fucking lost in people. And, This dude is [00:54:00] just so fucking happy. That brick wall is there to put a permanent division in between the bitches he had to cut off.

Tarot 16-21: Mom, dad, lovers, old fuck buddies. I hate that fucking term. But again, I'm speaking the common tongue of the people. Old habits and shit. This is a permanent fucking deliverance. This is not somebody peeping over this wall, trying to think about going back to, going back to an ex, having sex with an ex girl.

Tarot 16-21: Bye. This is somebody with good fucking sense. This is a child, but the Lord says you have to actually become like a child in order to be worthy to enter into heaven. You have to access your inner child, understand that no matter how high you go, you're always going to have more you need to learn. No matter how high you go, we're damn near at the end of the major arcana.

Tarot 16-21: Here we have a child showing us that there's so much potential, even with so much development that we've had. To get to the point that you're in sun energy, to be in love with [00:55:00]yourself, to know who the divine is, and know where you stand with the divine, and to have motherfuckers in place in your life.

Tarot 16-21: And to check energies as soon as they try to get close to you that are unworthy of you. Excommunicate. Immediately. Immediately. With all this power and self mastery that comes at this point, you still understand that there's yet a room to grow. And you've erected this wall back here to let the shadow behind you know that it shall not pass.

Tarot 16-21: And you're not fucking around. That's a strong statement. You're not negotiating with nothing and no one low vibrational ever again. You work too damn hard. You have all these fucking glistening ass rewards, and you know that if the devil wants to destroy you, he will send a person with some low vibrations to snatch your ass down, and you not having it.

Tarot 16-21: It's really just that damn simple. That's all there is to it. [00:56:00] You not let him send no person, and no goddamn thing, and no vice. You will not be overcoming your own private sensuality, getting caught up in porn, or Oh shit, playing your vid Playing video games too much was something I had to get delivered from.

Tarot 16-21: I had to restrict myself to exactly five matches a day. No more. I can do less, but no more. I was sitting down playing my fucking Xbox for hours. Didn't run out of time to do my fucking work and shit. Oh Lord. That is an example of sensuality that is positive, but I let my sensuality by loving to play my fucking Xbox go too damn far and then it became devil energy.

Tarot 16-21: You see what I'm saying? And so, but I didn't sit there and whine with God and be like, Oh my God, I'm playing video games. So what's the problem? No one's dead. It's just me. No, it's about balance. It's about [00:57:00] energy. It's about spirit. Does it matter how innocent some shit looks? If it's out of balance, then it becomes evil.

Tarot 16-21: Because it's hurting you. The evil is shit that hurts you and hurts other people. Sin is shit that hurts you or hurts other people. God don't have all of these rules and shit and all of these fucking laws and all of these commandments and the ways he wants us to live and place for the sake of trying to take something from you.

Tarot 16-21: He's trying to help you and trying to stop you from hurting yourself and other people. Because until you get to this point here, you can't really see shit for what it really is. And you're not fully illuminated. That is, but all these cars before you thought you were illuminated and you were acting like you were living your life like you were illuminated, but you were yet in the fucking dark and you had an attitude, perhaps, like, couldn't nobody tell you anything either.

Tarot 16-21: Or if they did, you were real slow about enacting any kind of changes because you were so goddamn comfortable with your cushy ass life until you got struck by lightning. That was. And, this is [00:58:00] true truth. You're looking at shit for what it actually fucking is, not what you want it to be, not what it once used to be, not what you, no, no, technically what you hope it's going to be.

Tarot 16-21: There's a caveat there to dealing with things by faith. actively building your building blocks today for what you hope something is going to be, but that is difficult to do when you're dealing with another person. You can do that with changes you want to make, but if it's another person, you can't change them.

Tarot 16-21: Be careful because so many people get destroyed through other people. And the devil will really use your empathetic heart against you, my, my empathetic nice people and really use it to kill you. How's that saying? Oh, love will be the death of you. You let it. You must learn detachment. You have got to learn how to let people go.

Tarot 16-21: I don't you, you got to learn how to let people go. You have [00:59:00] to, so the chances that you gonna make it at this point and be granted this at the same damn time, but everybody around you, it's just not possible, because it's not for them to grow when you grow you're on an individual journey. First, before you're a son, a father, a mother, a lover.

Tarot 16-21: Or in some polyamory, whatever the fuck you want to call yourself being in. I have a problem with polyamory. I have a problem with low vibrational polyamory. And it's very difficult for me to, to, to locate high vibrational polyamory. I've explained the difference in other episodes. I also don't have a problem with monogamy either, but it's also very difficult to locate high vibrational monogamy because you won't find it unless you find high vibrational people.

Tarot 16-21: And you have most people stuck in like a tower ish type of like phase, so they're, they haven't matured yet. But when you grow, you're gonna find the sort of people you can relate with [01:00:00] shrinks. The shit that you used to care to hear, like, girl, I really don't care who you're boning, how much money you spent or made.

Tarot 16-21: How are you doing spiritually? Okay, now we can talk about this other shit. I get so turned off by people who all they want to talk about is material shit, but I can sit here and see that they're just psyching themselves up into a tower. I'm like, girl, bye. Come at me with some depth. And, but you are here because God wants you here.

Tarot 16-21: They don't mean he want other people there. Maybe you'll have to leave them entirely. Maybe you won't. My, I understand that my situation was, I guess, extreme. I don't know what other people are going through that I had to cut off so many friends and blood family all at once, pretty much. It took a few months to go through my Facebook and delete.

Tarot 16-21: But when I made the decision, I was quick about it. And every day I was cutting more people off. And I got to the [01:01:00] point that I was sad about it. I got happy about it. I looked forward to it. Sam Smith wrote that song, bitch. I'm too good at goodbyes. I suggest you listen to it. That's how you need to get become real fucking good at goodbyes.

Tarot 16-21: Brew yourself a cup of tea and dress it up all the way you like with your fucking lemons and potions in it and shit and put your phone out and cut this bitch off and this bitch off and be like, Let the sunshine, let it shine. Okay? Those motherfuckers are not worth sacrificing your afterlife and your joy in this life.

Tarot 16-21: Oh, there are billions of people in this world. Bitch, go get you somebody else.

Tarot 16-21: Like billions that enjoy the process of getting to know someone new,

Tarot 16-21: but cheers to this naked ass baby on this sun card, giving us [01:02:00] this sun shining life. Full illumination. No more secrets. No more hiding from ourselves. No more hiding in vices. No more hiding through avoided attachment styles. And shying away from deep, romantic, vulnerable, fucking intimacy. Okay. This is fully embracing yourself.

Tarot 16-21: Fully embracing other people. No fear. Fearless. Everything's going to be all right. So therefore you can actually love deep, love hard, and actually get the true truth out of life like you were supposed to. Now that you've shaken off that fear and been delivered from your shadow, this is card number 19. 19 gives you luck, purity, intuition.

Tarot 16-21: 1 and 9 add up to 10, though this is life path number 1 because there is no life path number 10, which again adds up to 1, which is the number of the sun. Like the sun, the number 19 is full of energy [01:03:00] and the spark of life. The sun shines on its surroundings and leads others, leaves others full of goodwill.

Tarot 16-21: The sun gives a strong winner mentality, positive energy and optimism. The 19 is very optimistic and full of drive. The number 19, you can experience remarkable synchronicities, lucky coincidence, lucky coincidence, lucky coincidences, and can be carried forward by life. 19 gives you luck, purity, and intuition.

Tarot 16-21: 1 and 9 add up to 10, which again, adds up to 1, which is the number of the sun. Like the sun, the number 19 is full of energy and the spark of life. Oh lord, that's the same damn thing twice. 

Tarot 16-21: Life path number 1, the zodiac sign for the card of the sun is Leo. The planet is the sun. Leo is a fixed sign occurring in the middle of summer. The element is [01:04:00] fire. That fuego.

Tarot 16-21: Up next, we have the judgment. I just did a whole last episode about this karmic cycle that we were in a couple of weeks ago. I released these karmic cycles when the judgment is upon us can last for like months. When your personal karma comes back to you, that shit can last for years. Okay, I've heard some people say, if not decades.

Tarot 16-21: This is the interesting, we will read about what Llewellyn has to say in a minute, because I got some shit to say about this card here.

Tarot 16-21: This card is so fucking important. Like that hanged man was. And the last one that I must have talked a better part of an hour about that one card. The Hanged Man is important because that is us realizing, Oh fuck, we're fucking up. I need a new point of [01:05:00] view.

Tarot 16-21: That's like a self review. The Divine is there to help you. The Tower is what happens when you don't listen to your perspective that you gained. Say like in the Hanged Man, and you know, then God has to come and fucking knock you out of it anyway, or the universe, the Divine, or whatever you want to call it.

Tarot 16-21: That's the judgment. It's like your final fucking review. When we die, reincarnation or not, there's always some type of fucking review. You don't just get to live a life and then that's just it. But we have in life reviews. That's this karmic time that we're in. You got weird shit like, what's this, I heard like a fucking second moon just decided to show up and shit.

Tarot 16-21: And the atmosphere. You know God could've just,

Tarot 16-21: besides those tiny little asteroids and shit that they say are always crashing in the Earth, there's Atmosphere God could have let that thing [01:06:00] pass through there and destroyed us or God is trying to tell us Through all of these strange things that happened like that in the cosmos is that he really commands everything and our life is but a wisp in the wind that we should be very careful with how we choose to spend our time.

Tarot 16-21: Because in this review here, you got all of these naked ass people, children coming up all these coffins. Okay,

Tarot 16-21: when God looks at us, there's nothing that can hide every thought you've ever thought, every emotion you ever felt, everything you've ever done. Is what comes up for review, whether you prayed about it, whether you repented for those things, or that you confess they were wrong, or whether you hide hid behind them and said nothing's wrong as long as it felt good.

Tarot 16-21: You not hear how dangerous that sounds is one thing when, when, when we get caught up in living and, and all of this activity, [01:07:00] and we're not paying attention to it. Ooh. But does it sting a certain type of way when somebody reads back to us the shit we've said and thought and done? Those of us who have been arrested and been to jail or had to come up for some sort of judiciary review or whatever have felt this.

Tarot 16-21: Because when you stand before the judge in court, not only is it a very public judgment like this, where everybody can hear all the fucking shit you did, allegedly, according to the police report, doesn't matter. It could be somebody walking down the court, just the aisles of the court you wanted to pop in.

Tarot 16-21: If it's not a closed hearing, it's public knowledge. Your records are public knowledge. Lawsuits are public. Every fucking thing is public knowledge. It's like the people versus the law. this or the state versus and they consider it to be public knowledge. Judgment is complete fucking exposure. And when you stand before a judge in like human court, [01:08:00] they read back everything you on this day had 50 ounces of methamphetamine and try to cook it or sell it onto this person.

Tarot 16-21: And then you ran from the cops and you shot one or whatever the fucking case might be when we in the moment doing bullshit, it might feel right or sensual like we're having a good time, but it hits a different when we actually hear you on this day went had sex with 10 people or this person you didn't know and or and lied to your significant other and said you were at the casino when you was out here boning this bitch.

Tarot 16-21: Or whatever, or you stole 10, 000 from this person's safe, or whatever. It's one thing for us to do some shit, but it's another thing for us to hear it. The reverse, you

Tarot 16-21: mastered detachment in life and cried the tears that you needed to in [01:09:00] order to let people go. You gave 10, 000 to a charity even though you didn't have to. You fed the homeless. You fed the poor.

Tarot 16-21: You did good shit. Congratulations. Either way, we were too busy doing to be worrying about how it was going to sound later, but it's a completely different atmosphere if your judgment is bad and poor than if it's healthy and well,

Tarot 16-21: okay?

Tarot 16-21: This card has to do with the way we practice judgment of ourselves.

Tarot 16-21: What? I'm gonna say this. I'm not sure exactly what this has to do with this card, but the spirit of the spirit is bringing this up because I'm looking at this crossroads [01:10:00] here. On this flag at this, sometimes it gives me like medical vibes are different countries flags, but it's, it's technically like a crossroad that when you're at a judgment, when you're yet alive, you have a chance to do something about it.

Tarot 16-21: Judgment might not be a punishment being levied on you, but you're gonna have warnings. A warning comes before a fall as Yahweh promised us in the Hebrew scriptures tower moments and judgment, not just gonna happen to you like that. You gonna be given a chance to get it right because God is not cruel.

Tarot 16-21: Now, you let people try to talk about God like he's cruel, but they don't know God. People have known the idea of God and what others have told them about God, but have you really set aside time to really get to know God? Have you really scheduled time to date him like you would other people and really fucking dedicated time to get to know God for yourself without anybody else?

Tarot 16-21: That is the only God that is real. The ones you heard about [01:11:00] in church are the people, they might have told you some right things, but you can't have a relationship with somebody. And go off of what somebody else said about that person, because when you're in a relationship with the divine, you marry to the divine, and you can't get that from a preacher, a pope, a priest, an imam, or fucking whatever the fuck spiritual title.

Tarot 16-21: You can't hear about it from me. You can't hear about it from nobody. You got to go to the person you're in a relationship with for yourself and learn of them and date them and get to know them. So my question to y'all is how many of you. Who have this casual approach to God or this fucked up opinion about him actually try to get to know him.

Tarot 16-21: I mean really fucking get to know him and didn't come at him with this attitude. Are you supposed to do this? You should have kept them alive, or you should have did this. Why did you not act the way I said you should have? I'm laughing, but it's so damn not funny. The way people think that they [01:12:00] can address the divine.

Tarot 16-21: I can guarantee you, if you fuck around and let your ass die, or you let judgment come upon you while you yet live, and you got that kind of attitude towards God, and you don't remember that He is God, and you are not, it's not gonna go well for you, boo. Humble yourself and remember your place. And this world could use an extra dose of fucking humility all around.

Tarot 16-21: With this crossroads.

Tarot 16-21: I'm not going to say that. This crossroads here, it makes me think.

Tarot 16-21: I'm talking about masculinity here. In gay relationships and shit like that. I'm versatile, but I tend to lean towards attracting very fucking masculine or like, say, bisexual men. I just, I don't know, it's just fucking the way it is. And, [01:13:00] I observed that before I fell in love with myself like I have now, and I would not stand up for myself or look a man in his eye and say, this is what I'll take, this is what I won't take. You know, I could not convey my standards and boundaries that I just went with, whatever. Well, they allow that, and they didn't respect me, and they did things to disrespect me, but in so doing, we both let ourselves be disrespected, and we both hurt ourselves.

Tarot 16-21: I observe that now that I've ascended, and I just started dating and talking to dudes again, and I look motherfuckers in their eye, and I'm all like, I didn't like that what happened, you got like one chance to never do that again. Basically, and let me explain why, because I understand that there will be friction as we're getting to know people and everything like that, but I won't take certain things are a complete deal breaker and some [01:14:00] things.

Tarot 16-21: Okay, you're busy. You got a lot of shit on your mind. Clearly, you're accustomed to treating people casually, probably treat yourself casually, because we can't give away what we don't have. When people love themselves, they love you. When people don't love themselves, they disrespect you. Period. But I've observed that when I look a man in his eyes and tell him what I will and won't take, there's something that activates within his masculinity and it makes them fucking want to do it.

Tarot 16-21: It's very curious to me how feminine and masculine energy do this dance with each other that way.

Tarot 16-21: Is it a checks and balance? I don't know that I'd call it that because when I was not high vibrational and my feminine energetic approach to men, they met that and they did not try to help that. They just lowered down to the same level. [01:15:00] And so, but when I meet men now who have the treated people casually.

Tarot 16-21: What I'm presenting to them, what God is presenting to them through me karmically is a chance to change before judgment comes upon them. I'm trying to explain to you in a very granular and finite way how judgment can look.

Tarot 16-21: So take this example, you know, say I meet a man. It was used to being a ho. We'll take somebody home, sleep with them, maybe spend the night or whatever. He has no intentions of dating them or getting to know them. It was just quote unquote an experience to have, which is devil energy. I don't give a damn.

Tarot 16-21: It is. I've explained that, you know, previously and I tell him, you know, I'm not just going to sleep with you tonight. I meet you. It's going to take some time and everything like that. I've had, I've had it told to me just recently, you know, like damn, you know, Obviously, you're in that queen energy. You're not just gonna be one of the ones [01:16:00] we can just fuck like that.

Tarot 16-21: We gotta come at you different. Like, verbally, men have begun to tell me this. But by the same token, had I wanted to be a slut, they would've fucked me. So, boys, you have enough sense to understand. When you got a high class, a woman or a man like me who can carry heavy feminine energy in that way, you gotta understand, you know when we are special and when we're not.

Tarot 16-21: But why would you see that there's a difference? And lower yourself to some smut when you know that there's better available. What is it about you that don't love yourself enough that is broken within you that will lower yourself to these casual sexual encounters when you can see that the highest possible quality.

Tarot 16-21: Is in a strong ass fucking woman who stands up for her fucking value. You [01:17:00]understand that by lowering yourself to cheap encounters, you lower your value. And you hurt your inner child every time you do that, even though you bust a nut. You're literally sacrificing your eternity for the world. And what will it profit you to gain the world and lose your soul because you're not gonna have a fucked up internal way about you and die and go to heaven because you're supposed to be working on all that here and not fucking around.

Tarot 16-21: And so I thought I'd mentioned that. That's something that started to occur. You know, as I'm. Around males, you know, now that I've allowed that to begin to happen, but I'm not going, I'm just around them socializing. I ain't on no apps. I don't do that. I don't like the energy transfer on those. It's too deterministic.

Tarot 16-21: And I don't like the vibration and ain't worth the karmic consequences of fucking around on apps when I can walk outside and talk to people. So it won't be quick, but it will be qualitative and I [01:18:00] want quality, not quantity. And I don't want fast. I want it to last. But yeah, I mean, I was, I mean, when 1, 1, 1 man told me that he was like, I got to approach you slow. I perceive you as somebody who really respects themselves and I don't want to treat you the way I've treated other people. I hope that he's gone home to really think about the way he's treated other people and intends to stop that, because it's not cool if you, man, have enough sense to respect a female who you can see as a queen and a boss who is, who is to be treated right and is not going to settle for anything else and you still want to stay and try to make it work after she's checked your ass that one time she's going to do it before she excommunicates you, at her mercy.

Tarot 16-21: And I hope that on the other hand, you're not still out there being a hoe doing low vibrational shit because you see it's been presented to you what's better and you felt like the man and you come alive and want to rise [01:19:00] to the challenge. Something about us men, we like a challenge. Nothing wrong with that.

Tarot 16-21: And one of our greatest challenges in life. It's, it's getting the girl, be that man, woman, trans, whatever, getting the girl, however, that presents you won't grow as a man in that way. If you keep selling yourself short short Oh, easy ass, you're hurting yourself. And when a good challenge is presented to you, I suggest you rise to that challenge and do whatever the fuck you need to, to man up and evolve and become a real fucking man.

Tarot 16-21: And that way it actually pursue. You know, her, and date her, and court her, and romance her, and then, then however much time, get around to the sex, okay? You, you feel better, like, about yourself as a man. And in all other ways, it's just [01:20:00] some, some kind of good shit happens when we take our fucking time with things.

Tarot 16-21: It's difficult to explain, but when we slow down and do shit we used to do in a hurry, it's like fast food. It'll fill you up. But it's gonna give you high cholesterol, clog your arteries, it'll make you feel good in a moment. But if you learn to slow down and cook a five or ten hour meal, you can't even fuckin compare.

Tarot 16-21: Like the flavor, the taste, the whole experience of eating it, and then you learn. How to slow yourself down and enjoy the whole long cooking ritual and suddenly it doesn't seem like it's something that's taking fucking forever. You understand that it's supposed to because of how, high value it is. So then you can go from thinking that you need to have sex with somebody the day you meet them or within a week or a month, which is still too damn fast.

Tarot 16-21: Because you don't know what energies are operating within that person yet. Anybody will tell you they're holly dolly dandy and good just to fuck you, but that doesn't mean that they won't curse you in the process. You need to [01:21:00] verify that for yourself. You can't take people's words for that. And about how they look.

Tarot 16-21: You don't know what evil spiritual STDs or physical STDs are living inside those pretty bodies. But you go from, Thinking you need to have sex quick, date quick, move the relationship into these different stages fast. So just enjoying the fucking process, just like cooking a long ass meal and understanding the strength that you're building with doing that.

Tarot 16-21: So beware of how judgment might speak to you in different ways when you start to hear about second moons coming to earth or people dying and different things like that. Just strange shit you don't hear all the time. Stop. Go into your hangman mode and be like, what is the spirit saying? Don't just be like, oh, that's odd.

Tarot 16-21: And then you just keep on going. I'll distract you a strange or while all those tornadoes came from that one hurricane or oh damn that place got [01:22:00] hit by three hurricanes back to back. Don't be like, Oh, how strange we like, wait, what is God saying here? What is God speaking here? Let us listen to the judgment when it's upon us.

Tarot 16-21: Go in isolation, because when this day here comes, you can't hide. They used to sing that song in church growing up, come out of that, come out of that corner, you can't hide. You can't. You might think you can. In the scriptures it talks about when the judgment comes, like the final one, that people will run to the mountains and like, like try to get the rocks and shit to fall on them and try to hide from the face of the Lord, and you can't do that.

Tarot 16-21: Ain't nobody deliver you out of his hands, can't nobody, you can't. You can't. You might have spent your life running from yourself, but when the judgment is upon you, you will not run. You ain't going no damn where. You will face God. And the Lord has sent a light worker such as myself into this world [01:23:00] who have an extra taste of divinity about us and who have A scene and dealt with the divinity in ways that other people have not to warn you of what is to come and I warn of judgment to come.

Tarot 16-21: I know other spiritual people will be like, God doesn't judge. He's not like that. It's okay. Everything's fine. No, it's not bitch. God has personality. He has divisions sections of whatever the fuck you want to call it. Aspects of his nature just like we do. We're just little versions of him. He gets angry, he gets upset, he gets his heart broken by the way people choose every fucking thing else besides him and the way people hurt each other.

Tarot 16-21: And he fucking cries, and yet he dances, and he sings, and yet he holds all power. Don't you let people tell you that there's never gonna be a judgment, no matter what you do, God just loves you, and everything just ought to be peaches and fucking roses. I'm the most optimistic motherfucker I know, but I got enough damn sense to know that it ain't gonna be like that all the fucking time.

Tarot 16-21: Okay? Period. Your [01:24:00] ass better be ready for judgment in this life and after you die, because that is what's coming. But let's see what Llewellyn has to say.

Tarot 16-21: When upright, the judgment card's trumpet awakens you to a new phase of existence. Perhaps you are entering a period of rebirth and transformation that will require you to make an important decision. Having heard the call, are you ready to make the necessary changes and set out on the path of rejuvenation and renewal?

Tarot 16-21: Redemption requires the acceptance of a responsibility for past behavior and a commitment to do things better the next time.

Tarot 16-21: This is a card of awakening, the card of enlightenment, just like it mirrors the hanged man. It's, it's obviously a very karmic card. [01:25:00] And like I said, when the judgment comes to us, it's a chance to change when we're yet alive. If it's your final judgment, when you die, not so much and even the punishments that come along with say, like the tower

Tarot 16-21: and things like that are a chance to get it right. You're not dead. You're still alive. It might be uncomfortable. You can always rebuild. That's why Lucifer,

Tarot 16-21: like, if he can, to kill people, because God, he, God can bring people back to life, but God's mentality is, these days, it's kind of like, Eh, well, I gave you a fucking chance the first time, and what did you do with it? You know, kind of thing. I wouldn't bank on a resurrection, because the world is, is really like a winding down type of energy.

Tarot 16-21: And so the Lucifer likes to do is kill people so that you don't have chances to get [01:26:00] it. Right. Who gives a damn if you had to lose everything and everyone I've been homeless twice and have had to relocate being for the military for whatever. I mean, more times than I care to fucking remember it. Each time.

Tarot 16-21: That's a death than a rebirth and a losing of. whatever community I had. Oh, the fuck. Well, I just did it over. Okay. I mean, it was uncomfortable and shit. And I say that very simply, and that's, that's not, it's not that simple, but the bottom line is it can be done as long as you're fucking alive. Your life does not have to have a certain scape or look, but it's supposed to be real.

Tarot 16-21: And what real looks like today might 20 years, but it's supposed to be the truth, whatever that truth looks like for you, whatever the divine has laid out for you at that moment. For your life. So when we're offering new information and new perspectives, when God's trying to speak to us. Through psychics, clairvoyance, dreams, dreams you have, dreams that I get and I [01:27:00] interpret for you and I post it, you know, and you know that this shit is talking to you.

Tarot 16-21: If it's me talking to men, challenging their manhood, just by standing in my queen power and not letting them run their dicks inside of me the moment they think they want to. And you know, will you listen to that and actually go, I could do better, go into isolation and try to change, or are you going to keep doing more of the damn same?

Tarot 16-21: And get your ass towered. The point of you being here is not to acquiesce to fear and get comfortable. It is to grow. And to surround yourself with people who challenge you. Not who do the same shit you do like that. Some shit, yeah, you have some shit in common. But your friends, you're supposed to be praying with your friends.

Tarot 16-21: Meditating. Not just going to sex parties and shit. Okay? It's a problem if you can go have an orgy with your friends but y'all don't pray together.[01:28:00]

Tarot 16-21: But when you're offered a new perspective, like when you're listening to this podcast or other tarot readers online, what you don't do, what will you do? Because in your final judgment, when you stand before the throne, or if you choose to believe in reincarnation, the Council of Elders, how are you going to explain all the chances that you had to be reincarnated?

Tarot 16-21: And you shluff them off for more of the same. This is why the Hebrew scripture talks about how the fearful will not be allowed to enter into heaven. Not because, because if you're fearful you won't grow, and you won't evolve, and you won't do the things that you're supposed to do. You're just going to sit there in a state of stagnancy thinking that you're moving forward because you can go out in the world and have sensual pleasures and do shit and what you've been done is had by the devil.

Tarot 16-21: You've been deceived by the devil, but the judgment comes to you throughout your life to warn you. [01:29:00] Pay attention to all the ways that God is speaking to you and stop just brushing it off as that was something weird. Listen, because he's not always going to send a big, beautiful angel like this to talk to you because God used to do that more.

Tarot 16-21: But then people didn't listen, and then he had to deal with them more harshly, because if you get shown more divinity, and you choose not to do something with it, your punishment is greater. And so this is why you don't have a whole lot of us running around here who get visited by angels like I do, talk to them like face to face, but I'm gonna listen to God, and I make a fucking point of prioritizing God.

Tarot 16-21: I don't like go, Do what the fuck I want to first and then get to God second. No, I take God with me every fucking where I go and I pray about shit before I go do it. So I am not about to fuck around and get my ass in no damn trouble by having divine visitation and then being casual about what the fuck I've been told to do.

Tarot 16-21: But some [01:30:00] people that I've issued warnings to be like, we hear you. Well, we'll think about that.

Tarot 16-21: No, what God told you wasn't negotiable. You don't get to it when the fuck it's convenient. What the fuck is wrong with you? Like, I've actually had to talk to some people like that to try to wake them up out of their fucking slow ass, way too fucking comfortable, deceitfully fucking comfortable slumber.

Tarot 16-21: Like, no. God just thought enough of you to issue you a warning before he destroys you and towers you, and you're gonna get to it eventually? Or think about it. What? Okay. Like I said before, my hands are clean. I issued you your warning. Whatever the fuck happens to you happens. I'm going to sleep. But some people just won't be told and won't be warned.

Tarot 16-21: Some people just have to get knocked on the ass to learn anything. The number 20 in numerology is all about following your passion in life and never thinking about [01:31:00] money, since it will always be there anyway. The fundamental state of number 20 is to feel protected and always be surrounded by gentle, positive, angelic energies and a deep inner blissful peace.

Tarot 16-21: With the number 20, you naturally inspire others and have a strong intuition that helps you follow your path in life. You have a tremendous amount of joy and passion in everything that you do. Before taking on any project, it is essential that it feels right and makes sense to you on all levels of your being.

Tarot 16-21: And all that you do, you have to be in touch with your emotions. And in this way, you can make a profound and positive change in the world through your unique contribution.

Tarot 16-21: I love how this is talking about, like, authenticity,

Tarot 16-21: making the judgment call, like my example with the [01:32:00] fellas, to take a higher path, to use your sexuality to strengthen people and not to just have an experience, you know, actually have power in your sexual encounters come out of it that you can quantify. Yes, when you do sex right, especially when people you love, the sexual alchemy and the sexual transmutation can affect quantifiable changes beyond sexual release, as it is called.

Tarot 16-21: Ugh, God. I don't like that term. You know what your sex drive really is? Like, like, when you, when you feel like your nature like that, like your sexual feelings, that is the divine calling you into like union with yourself and with him. That is not an urge to go have some, find somebody to sleep with.

Tarot 16-21: That's not what that is. Not first. The first thing is for you to pay attention to what your soul and your body are communicating through you. It is a call of your nature from the divine through you, to you, for [01:33:00] you. It is a, it's a, it is a self connection call. Now, if you have your loving affection set on somebody and you want to express it in that way, then that's fine.

Tarot 16-21: But the knee jerk reaction should not be, Oh, I'm horny, let me go fuck. Or, I'm horny, I need to go masturbate to get rid of this problem. It's not a problem. It's not something that needs to be released. It is beautiful. There's healing in it. Mindful spiritual masturbation is fucking powerful. I'll put you on some orange candles, orange LED lights.

Tarot 16-21: Look you up some sacral fucking chakra drumming music, and take some time to yourself, roll your hips around in certain ways, or you know, like, or however you do it, you know, when you dance or as you're laying in bed being sexual with yourself, how you open your fucking sacral chakra, how you understand yourself.

Tarot 16-21: better sexually. You can't do that if every time you think you, you can't do that by having so much sex with other people because you're taking on their sexual [01:34:00] confusion and shit, and their karma and all that shit if you have not verified these people. And when we understand ourselves better sexually, Is it a non active having sex way but as powerful sexually energetic people and that the act of sex and masturbation are just two avenues of sexual expression.

Tarot 16-21: There's ways to use sexual energy has nothing to do with sex. And then when you charge that up and you come out and that power mode. And that's when you have people saying things like these men are saying to me, without me having to say much. We see that you're different. We, you not like them. They're telling me this.

Tarot 16-21: All I did was show up. Okay. But I've been spending a lot of time by myself and my own sexual energy rather than spreading it out all over town. Ultimately that will weaken me. If I did that, you do get weak. If you have too much sex, too many damn different people, because there's only so much of you to go around, [01:35:00] but it's not going to be weakness.

Tarot 16-21: You're consciously aware of now. Why am I perceived as so damn strong. And you may not be being told that

Tarot 16-21: very, very interesting how these energies and these spirits work, but when the judgment is upon you, I pray you listen, the, the life path number here is the number two 20 reduces to two. I could not find the zodiac sign related to the judgment though the planet appears to be Pluto. The element is fire.

Tarot 16-21: And now our last card is the world. Lord have mercy, no Zodiac sign that I could find for the world card to the card here, the planet here is Saturn element is Earth

Tarot 16-21: in numerology 21 gives [01:36:00] knowledge diligence and the ability to achieve great success after putting in a significant amount of effort. The number 21 is a magical number that symbolizes the entire universe. And that you can crack the code of success with 21 three, because 21 reduces three, you have innate intelligence and the ability to get results with all that you do, you have unique, almost magical ideas that you act upon with ease.

Tarot 16-21: You are ambitious and could reach far up the ladder of life. At the same time, you possess healing skills and spiritual gifts that allow you to enjoy unprecedented success. Well, you can't heal nobody else until you can heal yourself. Life path is number three. I think I might have said that this is another one of those titties out, but she wanted to cover her means for whatever reason.[01:37:00]

Tarot 16-21: We have the four fixed sign of the Zodiac represented here with Taurus. Leo. This eagle is the middle stage. The second evolved the form of Scorpio. And then we have Aquarius represented over here by this angel or cherub. We have this wreath. We see these wreaths like say in the six of wands, but they, you know, they show up whenever like there's a victory involved.

Tarot 16-21: There's a wand that she's holding. It's the same one like the does when he's holding one towards heaven and one towards the earth.

Tarot 16-21: Talk about self mastery. Let me see what Llewellyn has to say. We'll close this thing out. So moving to me and so powerful. All these [01:38:00] different tools, this advice that God has given us. We could just go pick up a book and study shit and learn it. We. There's a scripture that talks about how we've come to a point that we have need that no man teach us.

Tarot 16-21: I love teaching you this, but I would rather you get your own tarot cards and learn this for yourself. And I will continue to teach this, you know, and I love teaching all the things that I teach, but it is better. For you to teach you, I could have just hopped on here and started doing readings, but I at least thought I would try as the spirit led me to, to show you that these books exist, like Llewellyn's Tarot and the other one that I had that I started with was how to read Tarot.

Tarot 16-21: You can go online, look at websites. they'll be in the show notes, man, we have the power to work with God to heal ourselves. I'm careful to always involve God because there is no effect that can happen without God. You can [01:39:00] plant in water, but only God can give the increase until I hear people say things, heal yourself.

Tarot 16-21: I will maybe co heal myself with God. I get people wanting agency and fortitude, but be careful how people be throwing God out of things and taking on power for themselves too much. And really, you can't do anything like you can even hold breath in your nostrils. By yourself, you just can't like we literally are dependent upon God, which is a powerful position to be in.

Tarot 16-21: Actually. Anyway, Courtney Llewellyn, the world, when upright, highlights an important goal or destination in your life. You may be approaching the completion of a significant ambition, or perhaps you are about to embark on a journey to achieve a cherished desire. In any case, you're dealing with a major stage in your development, and you will need all the resources at your disposal to bring matters to a successful conclusion.[01:40:00]

Tarot 16-21: Just as Saturn. The last planet visible to the naked eye marks the outermost visible boundary of the solar system. The world card marks the end of the fool's journey toward enlightenment. Arriving at this card is a sign of completion, enlightenment, and success. You are returning to the Garden of Eden.

Tarot 16-21: This is the whole point of it all. You know, how much did we grow? How much did we change? At this point,

Tarot 16-21: you can do the thing. That heretofore, nobody who I have asked personally has been able to do, which is to [01:41:00] quantify their changes. I do not accept that somebody has grown in any way unless they can quantify, for instance, You know that you're no longer in high school because you graduate you matriculated through the ninth through the twelfth grade.

Tarot 16-21: You can quantify that you pass test and things like that. It wasn't just a feeling or an emotion. You can prove that you are having more knowledge now. As a, as a high school graduate than you did as a ninth grader. But when I ask people, tell me how you've grown spiritually, what's different between you, between now, what's different within you, between now and last year or five years ago, tell me how you've grown mentally.

Tarot 16-21: What I get is, well, I feel different or I, I, I, I do like, [01:42:00] they, they immediately, they immediately get uncomfortable because they know they can't confidently answer the question. And, that. Is again another prejudgment, because it's not me who people should be concerned about squirming in front of these people physically every fucking person I've asked this to has school physically squirmed in their seat, as they've consciously become aware of the fact that they actually don't fucking know that they cannot actually quantify.

Tarot 16-21: They're supposed it spiritual evolution and mental growth and changes. They can't these are people who have had psychiatrists and counselors and they meditate supposedly induce psychedelics and they can't tell me I was like this. Now I'm like this and it's because of this. Maybe I'm thinking it might be because of this though.

Tarot 16-21: I don't know. [01:43:00] 'cause I threw so much shit against the wall and I spent so much time with the divine. Who knows where the heal, you know, who knows when God healed me, but they, they can't say it. And then they all ask me, you know, was that answer good enough? If you have to ask somebody if your answer was good enough, bitch you already know.

Tarot 16-21: If flat ass fucking wasn't. I don't tell them that though. I tell them, well, that's your response. That's your response. Because it is their response. They, what they gave me was the best they have available to them at the time that they, that they were before me. But that squirming around that they do, what they're squirming around is the presence of God in front of me.

Tarot 16-21: I mean, other than, other than the presence of God, I'm, you know, a soul and a sack of flesh like every damn body else. But the power I have is God's power. It's not De'Vannon Seráphino's power. The thing, putting it in my mind to even ask somebody a question like that is the spirit. I'm trying to provide somebody a little mini judgment, so that they can make a [01:44:00] decision and go, Damn, I could not answer De'Vannon's question.

Tarot 16-21: Maybe I need to go set my ass down somewhere and think about the way I'm living life. What the fuck am I doing? These are people who travel a lot. Date around whatever the fuck they call themselves and doing kind of all over the place, but they don't seem to understand that they are, and they'd be talking to me about all these material things and then I'm like, what about this? But how have you fucking grown spiritually and shit, and then they don't fucking know. You can stand in front of a psychiatrist and have no quantifiable growth, but you just feel a little good every time you leave there.

Tarot 16-21: The difference in between going through high school and having stages of growth in life is that there's no body here to fucking monitor that. You know, the Lord has sent us lightworkers in here to [01:45:00] teach you and to guide you and shit. And to basically be your principals like you might have had in school.

Tarot 16-21: But you get graded when the judgment comes up though, you get, you know, be it somebody questioning you and challenging you, that is a grade. And the people who I asked these questions to failed, they fucking failed, but they don't always have to fail. They can change that shit if they accepted the challenge, the enlightenment that was offered to them.

Tarot 16-21: Basically what God was saying to them is no matter, you might think you've been living, But you haven't. You might think you've been growing, but you have not. Otherwise, you would be able to quantify it. People who have grown spiritually can tell you, I was like this, now I'm like this. I was like that, now I'm not like that anymore.

Tarot 16-21: I know I've been changed. And here's why. And I'm happy about it, I'm thankful to the divine for it, and I'm proud of myself for facing all of this shit and going through it. [01:46:00] The people who could not answer this question were feeling good and running around doing things that made their flesh tingle, but their soul was just as bleh.

Tarot 16-21: could, could have stood some enlivening. This card here is about

Tarot 16-21: being full. Yeah. It's karmic. It's the end of the cycle and all of that. But, but what, what is the point of the cycle? Why did we go through all of these trials and tribulations? And now that we've completed this cycle, what's the point? Some people say you start back over at the Fool. Maybe because we certainly are always students that's for damn sure.

Tarot 16-21: But I feel like we get to yet abide in this energy. While we're still learning the next phase of life, 'cause we gotta take this and go do something with it to help other people. You don't have this type of power swirling around you teeth [01:47:00] flying.

Tarot 16-21: I can't think of any of the cars right off hand. That's not an angel that flies, you know, not even tethered, you know, to, to, to, to the earth like that anymore. This is true ascension, Glory be to God. Thank you, Jesus.

Tarot 16-21: This is humbling. To me, you know, when I reached this. And like, and realize that I had, it wasn't something to, to shout about, to get excited about. I was excited, but it was so profound that I just shut my mouth and just like bowed my head before the Lord in gratitude as what can I say? Would a hallelujah even do?

Tarot 16-21: Dev had gone through everything that I've been through and then you get to a point [01:48:00] where I can shine and glisten and float. Nothing is weighing this person down. This is exactly how I feel day in and day out. I ain't saying everything's rainbows and I don't have a day where I have to shake negativity off.

Tarot 16-21: But this bitch here has a fucking plan for when the negativity comes. You got her fucking help and everything. It's connected with the divine while also being connected with the earth, but without touching it, though, see babies, we got to get to the point where we can command our flesh and the things of this earth, enjoy it, but not be dominated by it.

Tarot 16-21: Therein lies the difference between somebody who has mastered themselves, who has self control, and who thinks that freedom is freedom. Is a state of being able to do whatever the fuck you want. No, it isn't because you could fuck around and become a prisoner to the things that you do without thinking, well, understanding that you are.[01:49:00]

Tarot 16-21: Okay. Let me, okay. I'm gonna go down this road. I was at the Folsom street fire. I'd never been to San Francisco till this past week. I popped on up there. Check it out. All right.

Tarot 16-21: What amazed me and impressed me the most

Tarot 16-21: as I looked into the minds of the people. Who were at Folsom and all of these leather outfits and everything are naked or having sex or getting beat or whatever the fuck pissing on people peeing in their mouth getting peed on all the fetishes.

Tarot 16-21: Their minds were clear. They had clear minds, and I [01:50:00] know how to look flat to somebody's mind and see if they're confused or not, especially. And I was still very much high on LSD from the night before, because I took a fucking lot of it. And in that state of mind, my third eye is even more open than what it is normally.

Tarot 16-21: And I looked in these people's minds, and I saw, like, peace. Like, like, you, like, you would think, or I would have thought, or whatever the fuck, I mean, I went to investigate. I did not draw any conclusions before I went. I've made that mistake enough in life, and the more I learn, the more I know I don't fucking know.

Tarot 16-21: It's humbling and I love it because I can consume knowledge like a Hoover vacuum, but, their minds were clear. Their minds were totally clear and they were like, confident, like truly confident.

Tarot 16-21: And I realized that this wasn't about sex, because a lot of the [01:51:00] BDSM world isn't about sex anyway. A lot of those people get dressed up and do all of these things and there is no penetration or ejaculation. This

Tarot 16-21: wasn't even about,

Tarot 16-21: I don't know if I would even say that it's so much about freedom. The people who I would agree with for their reasons for being there, this was about an expression of who they believe themselves to be. An expression of, an expression of community. and acceptance in a unique way. It's very impressive to me, although so many of us were rejected by the church and we should have found acceptance.

Tarot 16-21: They're rejected by our blood families. How God has given us like the psychedelic community, the BDSM community, all these alternative communities, the goth community, and we go there and we find a community that will actually help us and be with us and not judge [01:52:00] us that we truly can come as we are. And I looked at the minds of these people at Folsom, and I was like, this, this has nothing to do with sex at all.

Tarot 16-21: And I was like, It's interesting it's not marketed that way, and no BDSM thing I've ever been to is marketed in any other way than sex, then that is sexual, because sex is what sells, and I don't think that a lot of people would believe, you know, or maybe biggie. It's just not sexy to market spirituality and BDSM.

Tarot 16-21: It just, it just doesn't go because I was thinking like, why haven't I been told this or what? It's like, maybe this is not the same experience everyone is having. Maybe people have to grow to the point that they see it this way. I'm sure you just had some sluts there for slut's sake. And, but I didn't see a lot of it.

Tarot 16-21: The only the only thing that I would disagree with is actually a person who I know who felt like that it's freedom to just [01:53:00] float around and be naked and do whatever you want. I can see the freedom and the nudity, but not into the necessarily engaging with the people because then you have a different energy transfer.

Tarot 16-21: I went down to like a BDSM dungeon, a friend of mine who runs in New York, because I was trying to be curious. And I was like, let me see. And all of that. And I just thought it was going to be like an educational thing that I was going to. I didn't realize it was going to be participatory. So I ended up doing this whole flogging thing to somebody else.

Tarot 16-21: And then I let them do it to me. I didn't mind leaning against the wall and being like hit with this flogger. I could feel how it was releasing, kind of like a massage would be. I just did not like that I didn't know the person. I have a problem with strange energies. We didn't have sex and I kept my clothes on, though I could have stripped down to my underwear or get naked.

Tarot 16-21: But, I learned that about me. [01:54:00] I, so I get, for BDSM, how it can feel freeing and releasing, and people will cry and go through all of these different emotions. Everybody's got their thing. I just want people, it was just so, I just want people to understand how much not about sex that is and why it's a good thing that we don't fucking judge people

Tarot 16-21: because it's just, it just amazes me how things look and how they actually are like when I get to it.

Tarot 16-21: But I don't think that freedom has to do with being able to do everything you want, sleep with whoever you want, and just travel around and just do whatever you want, because that's what the whole tower thing is about, shit, becoming a prisoner to your desires, becoming a prisoner to shit just because you can do it.

Tarot 16-21: It's not, that's not truly freedom. And so,[01:55:00]

Tarot 16-21: I can't remember how the fuck I got off on BDSM from, from this world card,

Tarot 16-21: but it was very, very, very,

Tarot 16-21: it was very moving and touching to me to see that like the love that I felt in these patent leather clad people running around here, sniffing each other's armpits. And I'm not even going to post videos. I took videos, but I think that I would defile those videos. Unless I do this whole, like, rant before the video, which I'm not going to, and actually explain it.

Tarot 16-21: And maybe this is why people don't try to explain it, because how the fuck do you really I mean, I guess I just did explain it, but But fuck, it's like, it felt sacred, or like, like a very, like, sacred thing to be a part of. [01:56:00] I wasn't turned on by anything, I was just like, whoa, this feels like home. Feels like family, what the fuck?

Tarot 16-21: I wear leather and shit like that. I was full on goth, of course, because I'm so fucking goth. Like, y'all don't even realize it. But it was, it was just, let me just shift my mind off of that. It's just, it was just like, so fucking amazing. But that doesn't mean that everybody was there for high vibrational reasons. I'm not naive, but at least 90 to 98 percent of those people are there for the love that all. Yeah. Yeah, they'll tie anybody up and beat them.

Tarot 16-21: I won't because I'm so energetically sensitive. I just can't do that. I have to know people before I get physical with them. I don't have to know everything about 'em or marry 'em, but it can't just be high. My name is okay, tie me up. I would fucking go outta my skull by having it [01:57:00] people's energy run through me like that.

Tarot 16-21: That , I don't know. I can't do it. I'm not saying it's wrong or not, I'm not, but I'm saying you need to know yourself. And in that world, you gotta know who the fuck you are. You can't come in there, and you can get in that world to learn who you are, for sure. But you gon have to figure out who you are, because the personalities are strong, and the boundaries are strong, which I appreciate.

Tarot 16-21: The communication is fucking strong. You know what's happening, why it's happening. You have your safe words, and all of that.

Tarot 16-21: The energy and how clear their minds were is very different than the energy I see in people who are just promiscuous for promiscuity's sake and trying to call it freedom. I don't see the cobwebs and spiderwebs in these BDSM people's minds. And you would look at somebody with all this kink and bondage gear.

Tarot 16-21: And think that they're the hoes or the wild ones [01:58:00] when really the confused people, the people who don't know how to target their sexual energy and use it specifically BDSM is a very specific transmutation of sexual energy, which often doesn't have anything to do with sex. It's another one of those things that it's a, it's that you can use sexual energy to heal, to enlighten, to grow and keep clothes on or take them off, but there'd be no penetration, no oral, no nothing.

Tarot 16-21: It's beautiful. It's really fucking beautiful because it's the intentional use of sexual energy that's well thought out as opposed to I'm horny, let me go do something or hop on an app or I need to release and let this go. It's no, we feel sexual. Now let's empower ourselves through this and command it.

Tarot 16-21: And slow the fuck down with it.

Tarot 16-21: The mindsets are totally damn different, and what is more glorified in this world is shit like Grindr and sex with no aim to it without loving the person or self [01:59:00] care, the self care, aftercare, you know, things like that. You know, in the BDSM world, even if it's not sexual, there's aftercare. You just beat this person with this fog or whatever.

Tarot 16-21: We're gonna pay attention to how they feel. Do they need me to hold them for the night, get them a glass of water, glass of warm milk? Do they need me to sing them a lullaby? Whatever the fuck it is, you discussed this before, you do whatever you gotta do. Wild sex, it's like fucking go. They not spending the night.

Tarot 16-21: If they do, you didn't even discuss the aftercare. It's just random. I could see this on a 13 year old if they have no parental fucking instruction, but y'all, y'all grown ass people, and you have not evolved in the way you approach sex. What's gonna stand against you in the day of judgment besides how you do things is the fact that you did not want to change how you do things that you got to a point that you were so fucking comfortable with it that you would not accept.

Tarot 16-21: New point [02:00:00] of views and perspective when they were offered to you. And no matter how much you got towered, you just went back to more of the same.

Tarot 16-21: But I will think about that for a while. How clear these people's minds were and not clouded like random hoes minds are. It's just fascinating to me. It's just absolutely fascinating. But I think about it, I've seen this clarity, you know, with different BDSM people I've talked to before. I do not agree with just the wild use of sex and just doing it for freedom.

Tarot 16-21: I don't, but I do like how fucking focused they are about it. Very clear minded. We're gonna do this, this, this, this, why, you know. So, again, I try to find the common ground even though I don't agree with everything. Our common ground is the clear minded approach and [02:01:00]intentional transmutation of sexual energy.

Tarot 16-21: Even though I'm not about to go have sex with somebody, I don't know. Like many of my friends will. I'm just not going to do it. It's not happening. And, so the world,

Tarot 16-21: so you get your congratulations, but remember, even though you graduate, you're still a student. And at this point, you can look at somebody and quantify your spiritual and mental growth. And in those statements alone, you will help a lot of people because they're going to look at you and see everything that they're not.

Tarot 16-21: That in that moment, they're either going to accept the challenge to rise higher. And do better, or they're going to cave and acquiesce to fear and go back to more of the same and have to keep repeating their suffering again until, until they get sick of it and change. And babies, you're going to realize it took a lot more out of you to stay where you are, than it would have taken out of you to move [02:02:00] on from where you are.

Tarot 16-21: Because really you're going to cry either way. Either your soul is going to cry because you won't let go of old people and old patterns and old habits and these old ass paradigms. Are you going to cry? After you let them go, but either way, you're gonna cry. Your soul is crying while you think you're having a good time, or you will be consciously crying after you cut off the shit you knew wasn't serving you while you thought you were having a good time.

Tarot 16-21: But the difference is once you let go of those tears end, if you stay where you're at, you'll keep on fucking crying. The choice is yours. I've said all I came here to say next time I'm either going to do a global reading, I'm going to teach you planets. I don't know. I gotta see. I've been jonesing to get to these readings, though.

Tarot 16-21: Mm. I've been jonesing. It'll change my schedule, which I'm always excited for change because I'm gonna have to release a reading, probably one [02:03:00] per week, along with a show per week. Because I can't let the readings take the place of the show and so I probably could just go ahead and start the Reading and just teach the planets and stuff like that, you know, because it was not like I could ever teach you everything.

Tarot 16-21: We'll see what the spirit says. I love you. I really fucking do. If I didn't, I could have taken all this knowledge and skipped off into the cosmos somewhere if God would have let me.

Tarot 16-21: It's no small thing for people to share knowledge with you. This is true love. You I could party with you, have sex with you, date you, court you, romance you, but shit, we gotta learn from people around us. I hope y'all can hear this, you know, in everything that I say and do, and I'm going to be myself. You know, I'm very, very strict when it comes to spirituality, [02:04:00] but that's because I've seen what is to come.

Tarot 16-21: I've had dreams and visions and stuff about judgment and stuff. But the people who raised me did too. It's not game. And because I've seen how serious it is and what it is to come, I've spoken with angels in my dreams, and physically, that have come to talk to me, just the sheer presence of those beings is enough to, to just shake fucking, I don't even know how to fucking explain it.

Tarot 16-21: It's just like, it's just like, what in the fuck? And God is real. Angels are real. Judgment is real. And that's why I harp on the things that I do. Because that's my calling. So I pray you do some praying to see whether you're going to accept the things that I've said, that God has said through me, brother, and accept this as an act of love, as a token of vulnerability, to try to share what I know, and to try to break it down in such a [02:05:00] way to make it understandable.

Tarot 16-21: From this very complex mind that I have, and I wouldn't trade it for anything.

Tarot 16-21: Okay.

Tarot 16-21: It's after three in the morning. And I'm fine with that because this is exactly how I wanted to ring in my first year in New York, working, doing the Lord's business is exactly how I wanted to do it. And I'm going to go pray to him and thank him for bringing me through to this first year and for bringing down under apparel, my lingerie store into our 10 years, and then I'm going to go to fucking sleep until next time.

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